TRUTH REVEALED

To summarize what I read since last time, Janie's "parents" are really her grandparents. This was, as most as it could've been, a relief for Janie to hear, who always imagined her affectionate parents as criminals. I first thought that was nothing interesting, but the reason why her mother Hannah, had left Janie for her grandparents was thought-provoking and a bit twisted. Ever since Hannah was a child, she did not include herself in any appropriate activities of her peers. Instead, she focused on right and wrong, she felt undeserving of everything she had, and had made herself a very depressing person. She soon met a group called the cult, and that group was a weird twisted illegal organization that focuses on people like Hannah, they take her in and completely control her life. They wanted to change her name to "purify" her, and if she had joined that group, then she would no longer have to feel guilty, because they cut off all sorts of entertainment. They wore yellow robes, men with shaved heads, and even have their leaders mate the people there.
This was the most thought-provoking to me. I first wondered how the author had come up with this idea; it seemed like to me a twisted religion. Many religion talks about being "purified" of world guilt, for example monks seclude themselves of the world, hoping to find a greater meaning of life and cuts themselves off from eating meat, love between man and woman, and almost everything the world would think as "fun ". The cult creates a world, telling the people it's a perfect world, they would no longer need to suffer from the guilt of having a happy life, because they are going to take it from them. Well, in my opinion this is just ridiculous people wasting their time , for the time they commit in living with the cult, feeling bad, having no fun... why don't they put that time for a trip to Africa, or at least commit themselves to something that contributes to the very thing they feel bad about. Hannah tried to leave the cult, leaving no trace of where they've been, moving place to place, but ironically in the end, she wanted to go back; she was addicted to it. How can some place, creating a fake cold world of a twisted "utopia", possibly have a person addicted to it? Could it be that humans have that sense of good in them, and they try to find something to fill up that empty space inside of them? She knew how bad the cult was, but she insisted on going back, telling me one thing, she enjoys lying to herself. She really believes that makes the poor situation better, or if she doesn't, then she's just plain selfish, only going there to make herself feel better, not caring about the people that loves her, only telling herself that at least she's not as bad as those people who are enjoying and appreciating life.